Quitter

Last blog was about what happened in the 16th of April which turned out to be my last day of training. Yeah, it's only my sixth day and I decided to quit. Don't wanna wait for the company to kick me out so I thought of leaving.

It seems to be an ungrateful gesture for someone who's just starting in the real world like me. I might be a little too pessimistic with the work I'm doing, but that's just me... Always expectin for the worst scenario. Besides, dealing with people who really need the job made me realize that I'm different from them. They applied for this because they need it while I did because I want it. You know that there's a vast difference between the two, don't you? I even uttered to them, in one of those days of my training, that our work shift (3pm-12mn) is like the hours I spend out and loud with my friends. Saying that was so inappropriate, I believe so. I was just playing around while they were on to the real game. This thought, the difference I'm feeling, somehow became the main reason of my decision. I was a premature lad for the real business world. My uncle's right, I guess, for telling me to focus on my studies first. Still have three years in school, better not rush things, best to enjoy what you have at the moment. Guess I should just relax this rainy summer and prepare for the real thing come June.

That's it, folks. Summer job's over. Got at least a week allowance from it (hehe). The only thing I need to do for the remaining month of vacation is how to kill boredom.

ALMOST...

[I wrote this last 16th of April at Starbucks while waiting.]

On the verge of losing hope, I randomly got this call which, at first, excited me but, really made me sad in the end.

Sixth day of training... Still, I got no leads yet. Basically, leads are prospects who are liquid to invest and are willing, ready and able to take a call back from one of our Senior Analysts. So, I cautiously and politely conversed with this I-thought-you-are-a-lead man. He seemed to be interested. Yeah, he seemed to be. He answered the questions I threw him except the money question. Well, he was an investor before. It's just that he did not want to talk about money on phone. Then, it all shattered. My would-be-lead hung up on me.

I tried every way I know and learned from the training to salvage the conversation. But, it did not work out. I almost got it! I was about to take hold of that paper to scribble on the lead's information then hand it to my supervisor. But, it all slipped away. The thing I was dying to have for the past six days had gone.

Right now, I'm contemplating if I'm still gonna continue this. I am not really on the game but I'm having a taste of it. I really don't know if I can do it after what happened. Should I stay behind and quit??

Taking Advantage of the Rain

20th day of April. Yeah, it's mid-summer and I hate it, really. As usual, I woke up after lunch. I have spent the whole night (and early morning, also) watching Grey's Anatomy. Really wanna catch up with the latest episode. But, today I'm craving for something other than watching...

Such a gloomy day, I thought. Clouds are gray and heavy. Roads are wet and sloppy. As I peaked through the window, I saw people walking holding their umbrellas up sparing them from dripping. While the King Sun is resting behind the mountains and his rays aren't visible, it's the best time to go out. Taking a bath did not last too long as compared to what I had the past weeks. As I have said, I'm craving for something aside from almost 24/7 sitting in front of my laptop. I want to read a book. After I have finished Eclipse (Twilight Saga's 3rd book) last week, I am missing those moments when you must generate your imagination at its best and prepare your dictionary (I use online) for the what-the-hell-are-that words. First thing that came across my mind was Angels and Demons since the movie adaptation is dated to be on the silver screen 13th day of next month. I went to Midtown (Robinson's Place Ermita) coz it has National Bookstore and Power Books (aside from I so miss the place). Setting my mood into reading, I went inside Power Books and sat down there for some minutes while taking a peek at a book about the English-speaking maid named Inday. That's really a good one. Sadly, the book I am meaning to buy was at the time, sold out. I, then, sought for the latest Bob Ong's book but, it's also sold out. How sad. I still have another option - National Bookstore. I went there after learning that the books I'm looking for at Power Books are not available. Customer Service... I asked the lady if the books I'm looking for are available. Her answer is no.

I still got the spirit, the drive and the energy to look for that books (any one of those will do). Desperation, you may call it. It's mid-seven in the evening and the rain has not stopped yet (it was not that hard, though). I took a cab headed to SM Manila. My hopes are still up as I got nearer the mall. As soon as I got inside the mall, I went straight to National Bookstore. And, crap. The books I want to buy are not in the shelves. Customer service... Both are not yet available. But, at the back of the lady, I saw Mitch Albom's books. Tuesdays with Morrie (done!) and For One More Day (done!). Then, I remembered that specific book I am borrowing from Tami (college friend) which she still has not found yet. I asked the Customer Service lady if The Five People You Meet in Heaven is available. In less than half a minute, she handed me the small book. I don't want my taking advantage of the rain to be in vain so I bought the book. Besides, I really am fascinated and curious with that book for months now. No regrets. I still have so many days to buy the books that I haven't bought today.

Now, the rain has stopped. I think King Sun is ready to shine again tomorrow. That outpouring in the middle of the summer is not just one hell of a rain. It, somehow, gave me (hope the others, too) the chance to go out and enjoy without being exposed to its rays and get crappy perspired all over. I believe, you can see now how much I hate summer.=))

The Inexperienced

I entered this new world basically, with knowing nothing. In the heart of Makati, 22 storeys up the ground, I stayed in a room where a coven of strangers sat side-by-side of me with a non-resident who manages this world I am now into. I was not feeling any good as I do not have any single damn idea on what was I supposed to do. Seeing the blank faces of everyone in that very room, I barely knew one. I was alone. As the evening approached, we introduced ourselves to each other. And... DAMN! My heart raced so fast while the pressure started to run through my system. I was youngest... The only inexperienced in the batch. Everyone else in the conference room have had call center jobs before. They know what it feels like to be taking calls and talking for 8 hours to people from the other side of the world. I felt a little discouraged, at first that I thought of quitting even though I have not started the game yet.

Surprisingly, my first day of training went on in a blast. I got to read my spiels in front of everybody which kinda boost my confidence enough for me to come back the next day (LOL). Though while reading, everything seemed to be blurry. Good job, the non-resident manager said which really made me somewhat ecstatic and excited.

As I was heading back home, I say to myself that this is really something worthwhile and challenging to do over the summer. We were sent home ahead of time, so I arrived earlier. 'Twas quite a good day as I called it one after feeding my eyes on a downloaded beautiful movie.