Night has fully reigned as dark clouds covered the sky. Gloom was gradually taking over me. Contemplating for hours, I still cannot fathom why things went the opposite direction. What went wrong? Who had gone too far?
Maybe I was more of the problem. I mean, I was the one who has all these exaggerations.
It was my mind which over-thinks. Maybe, the only wrong they have done was to give me too much. I grew up skeptical as I was not used to be the taker. Being the subject of overflowing attention and care was so new to me, I can't keep up.When I realized that everything has been over the top, I felt the urge to run. It was a bit too selfish, I know. But, I felt as if I was slowly drying up. I felt lost. I felt compromised. My world has been limited. It was like I am caged. I needed to free myself.
Too much of anything is bad. That's one of what I have learned in this experience. I was like too drunk from drinking too much wine. Things may last even before you thought of it ending. I grew tired already.
What you don't have, you can't give. I do not have so much love in me. I grew up receiving too little. So, as I mature, it became natural to me to fence out and not take what some give me.
We're good now. But, of course, we're not the same as before. One of my crazies has gotten the best of me.
