Ok, so now I'm getting depressed. Yesterday, I told myself that I gotta start to stop. Start to stop what? Because of the recent turn-outs in my fucked up interpersonal discourses, I thought to myself that I need to stop giving too much bullshit to people who apparently does not see me and appreciate what I do.
I don't usually say this but I guess, I will now. It hurts. It's like I've been snatched of my spotlight. I've been hit. So hard that I can't even get up. Worse part is, no one even tries to grab my arms and help me get back on my feet. It's just sad to realize that after all the things I've made, sacrificed and taught, I still end up being the one in the dark.
I may have this almost indestructible wall around me, but it's all there so I would know who cares enough to destroy it. And you know, what sucks the most? To realize that you don't even give a shit to break that wall.
